Into week 4

This week, for the first time I felt a bit down about this new way of life.  I also feel conflicted because I know I am so lucky to be able to pay my bills, I can get out to the park for a lovely walk, cook and bake ,have enough food, help some clients, zoom with friends and family. Yet I miss my life, my normal,every day every week routine, running courses, seeing clients in the flesh, meeting friends for coffee for lunch, going to the Philharmonic, The Everyman, Fact. Mann Island and Hunt's Cross choir. Going out for dinner with friends, visiting Andrew and Lucy in Woolton, seeing the new things they are doing in No 22.

It is a big adjustment for all of us , which makes it hard to admit how hard it is for me, I miss John even more during this time, I miss my dad  my mum, I miss Anita. My mind is turing to all my family and friends who are long gone. My lovely grandparents, aunts uncles and even some cousins, all dead now.

I know that I am passing through this moment as I do from time to time, you are never too far away from remembering and missing your loved ones. and mostly I am used to it and I enjoy my life and feel so grateful to have shared in all these peoples lives.

I am grateful to still have Patsy, Kev, Philip C, Pete, Tony , Jenny W, Sue and Margaret, still in my life, as they are all in my age group. I am surrounded by  much younger people, and I relish that ,it is good for me and keeps me young I really like young people.

I do like to be with my peers too.

This week, Janet my Asda driver got me lots of flour and caster sugar and other baking things, I am so grateful ,Stef, brought me some shopping, a new friend Paula, from Next Door brought be a few things ,I really like her, and think after this is over we might meet for coffee.

Sadly William and Emma lots kirk this week and we were all sad, I made them cakes gave them some flour and we all raised a glass to Kirk ,in our own flats.

Chandlers opened again on April 15th ,my dad's 92nd birthday. I always get my Christmas Tree from Chandlers. William and Emma very kindly went along and got me lots of plants to fill up my empty pots. Sandy and Joanne have painted the shed doors and fixed my hose, it has now stopped leaking :)

The garden has been transformed, full of life and young people all working away to make it nicer, I like it. We hope to get a new fire pit and some new garden furniture.

Two people have ordered cakes from me for Thursday, I feel very happy about this as Nel's Bakes has had to close down due to current crisis. They are both friends, but are insisting on paying me.

I am much happier when I feel helpful and useful.

Peace love and healing , to the North to the South to the East and to the West.