May weekend!

Sunday May 3rd,


another week has passed and we are still in lockdown.

This week The Prime Minister is back at work . He has recovered from Covid 19  and is girlfriend has had a baby boy, he has been through a lot.

I am not confident that he is the right man for the job at this time, it is quite frightening when you look around the world at some of the leaders, it feels like it is the blind leading the blind.

I imagine that it would be good if there was more consultation going on ,a more co-ordinated approach.I hope there is behind the scenes. I think if we knew more we would feel better.As humans we like to feel in control even if it is just an illusion.

In the end we have to make up our own minds about when we feel it is safe to go out ,and where we choose to go.

I hear that some young people are finding lockdown hard and are going out anyway.  Some people feel annoyed as they are giving up their lifestyle for the elderly. I get that ;it must be hard ;if you don't think there is much chance of you getting the virus ,or if you do it will just be like flu.
Each of us is on our own journey through this .
We don't know what will happen when we do go out again ,or when pubs and theatres open.I imagine it will be trial and error.

I continue to have people pop past my window, I am so happy to be on the ground floor.

I have a folding chair and an umbrella by the window. I have flasks which are wiped down before and after each use,they are filled with tea or coffee.I wear my marigold gloves to bring in the shopping etc.

It can be quite festive a highlight of my day. This week a very big highlight was that Andrew came over to bring me his stand for my laptop, his keyboard and mouse. Which meant that I could try them out over the weekend and decide if I would like to have them to go with my laptop.

I have decided that I would like them . I won't hunch over so much with these additions.And I want to do more writing during this time maybe and after too .

I am listening to more Radio 3 again, the news is too alarming on Radio 4 too much analysis and it just creep up on me after a nice enjoyable programme.

I ordered and jigsaw for Andrew and Lucy a few weeks ago of Inveraray Castle, I got in on ebay it was only 5 dollars for the puzzle and £19 to have it delivered from America.

It looks great and will pass a few evenings for them.

I have my Zoom chats with the sisters on Monday afternoons, I have had a few with Gary and Sam too One with Matthew and Marie.

I send out emails to my students with ideas for homework and I still do a few telephone counselling sessions.

I had another marathon call with Susan this morning, almost 3 hours, what do we get to talk about :)

I have had a few shopping deliveries with fresh fruit vegetable and salad, great stuff I have had a big cook in which I enjoy doing, and I did a big bake in too mostly for Andrew and Lucy

I came across some writing that I did a few years back while John was in Marie Curie, it made disturbing reading and I cried a lot that day, that was such a tough time for me,  for all of us.

I think as we are hearing of so much death every day it stirs up deeper feelings and memories ;maybe in all of us; certainly for me.

This is a very difficult time for the world .We are all doing our best I am sure ; some days I feel optimistic and believe that all will be well, and other days I feel very frightened that I will end up in hospital unable to breathe ,or worse one of the children will.
I am glad Philip is in Taiwan for now as he has sarcoidosis - and I feel terrified when I think what might happen if he contracted the virus.

I think I might need to see the dentist , I don't know if they are open, what the procedure is.

I will call tomorrow and I might need to talk to the doctor too and I don't know what is happening there either. All things I normally take for granted, now I wonder how to get to the dentist ,as I usually go by bus or uber, both things I am not supposed to do at this time.

All shall be well
and all shall be well
and all manner of things shall be well........and so it is.