July 21

Since I last blogged I have been edging out gradually and my world is expanding a little.

I have been to the hairdresser ,Jacelyn, and had a cut and blow dry. I felt very safe the place was clean and tidy all my things were put into a plastic bag and I had to use hand sanitiser and sign in.It was fantastic to be somewhere normal again and great ti have my hair cut it felt great.

My first trip to the shops was to the wee paper shop on Smithdown  Road where I used to get John's Guardian. I bought a pint of milk and paid with contactless I was the only person in the shop and it felt good to do it.

I then went to the Tesco on the corner and bought a few things including flowers for myself. It was all good, the screens seem  safe for the staff and I wore my mask.One day when I was walking in the park I decided to go to the co-op on Lark Lane for some sesame seeds . I could not get them online of locally, they did not have them either.But it got me into another shop and that felt ok too. Today I went to Asda to get a print made from my phone and while I was there I did some shopping.I am getting braver and braver as time goes on. I am careful but taking a few more risks.

I was happy that Mersey Ferries used some pictures on our wedding pictures in their social media sights, it was lovely to see the pictures there with a little bit of our wedding day story. And it was lovely to read about another two couples who had their weddings on the ferry. too

It is good to be thinking and talking about things other than Covid 19; and Brexit which I notice is creeping back into the news.

I would have been arriving back in Liverpool after two months in Castalla on July 8th but sadly due to covid, I was not able to go at all. I was coming back earlier that usual to celebrate my son Andrew's 50th birthday with him and Lucy , but again due  to to covid, celebrations  had to be postponed.

I had another meal with Andrew and Lucy in Woolton ,this time I took all the food with me and we had another great night together. It was not until Andrew was bringing me home on the Sunday that I realised that they can come to my house if they are in my safe bubble. I really thought that it was only me that could visit them :)

I am still counselling on the phone and I can hear from clients how difficult the lockdown is for them I think mental health issues are and will continue to rise due to this very difficult time on our planet.

I have no confidence in our government or the USA government.I listen to in depth analysis programmes on Radio 4 and have realised that once I have the information I have to take responsibility for myself. That is what has given me the courage to go out more.

My cleaner is back working and it is lovely to have her back again, I love going out for a few hours and coming home to a lovely clean house. Another sign of things returning to normal.

I have been receiving lots of deliveries of the gifts that I ordered for Andrew's birthday. The last one, one I thought I could not get as it was out of stock in a few shops, became available a few days ago and it has made me very happy.
My  main gift, sadly could not be got for Andrew, due to Covid, but maybe in time it will be possible.

I am looking forward to this weekend and seeing Andrew on his 50th birthday and I will celebrate too ,being a mum for 50 years :)



"Breathe darling, this is just a chapter ,not the whole story."